Well, I should be working on my written first step.
The one I told my sponsor that I'd have done by, uh, yesterday.
And, I should be working on a car in the carport. One that was supposed to be done by, uh, yesterday.*
But, I decided I'd take a trip by Blogger. I've also worked on getting some side work, selling some cars, and fixing a guitar effect pedal.
I've found I can get really busy with legitimately productive stuff when it's time to do actual step work.
Anyway, this first step worksheet** he gave me is pretty brutal. There are a bunch of questions about my physical condition (along the lines of how well I've taken care of myself), as well as my emotional, spiritual, social/family, occupational and financial life.
The bottom of the page says (yes, in caps):
There's a couple more pages of writing, and then the worksheet ends with the following directive:
Time to get to work, in more than one sense.
-M
*Note: the reason it wasn't done was that a part was defective, and it was getting a little late in the day. But, I have got a replacement, and need to get out there now...
** looking at the bottom of the page, it says: "With Love, from the Top of the Hill Group..." and their address. If I go to San Diego, I should look them up.
The one I told my sponsor that I'd have done by, uh, yesterday.
And, I should be working on a car in the carport. One that was supposed to be done by, uh, yesterday.*
But, I decided I'd take a trip by Blogger. I've also worked on getting some side work, selling some cars, and fixing a guitar effect pedal.
I've found I can get really busy with legitimately productive stuff when it's time to do actual step work.
Anyway, this first step worksheet** he gave me is pretty brutal. There are a bunch of questions about my physical condition (along the lines of how well I've taken care of myself), as well as my emotional, spiritual, social/family, occupational and financial life.
The bottom of the page says (yes, in caps):
IN SUMMARY
ARE YOU CONVINCED THAT YOU ARE POWERLESS OVER ALCOHOL AND THAT YOUR LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE EVEN WHEN SOBER?Well, I guess these folks don't pull punches.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT TH E FACT THAT I AM POWERLESS?
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT THE FACT THAT MY LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE BY ME?
There's a couple more pages of writing, and then the worksheet ends with the following directive:
Somehow, I'm gonna' guess that this group is pretty big on having sponsors. And, I'm gonna' also guess that they're probably pretty big on staying sober, and having the promises - not just the ones read at meetings, but the ones glossed over on almost any of the first 164 pages of the book - operative in their lives.SUMMARY STATEMENT AND TAKING THE STEPIF YOU ARE READY TO ADMIT YOUR POWERLESSNESS YOU CAN DO IT BY WRITING OUT THE FOLLOWING STATEMENT AND/OR TELLING IT TO YOUR SPONSOR OR THE GROUP (IF NO SPONSOR).
"I, ADMIT THAT i AM POWERLESS AND THAT MY LIFE HAS BECOME UNMANAGEABLE."
YOU HAVE NOW TAKEN STEP ONE!!!
Time to get to work, in more than one sense.
-M
*Note: the reason it wasn't done was that a part was defective, and it was getting a little late in the day. But, I have got a replacement, and need to get out there now...
** looking at the bottom of the page, it says: "With Love, from the Top of the Hill Group..." and their address. If I go to San Diego, I should look them up.
cool post glad i found it. definitely hard to stay clean in this world. not that sober life is terribly exciting just not nearly as dangerous, usually.
ReplyDeletecadan
Hey Cadan, glad you stopped by. I've been slacking off a bit lately, and hadn't realized I'd had any comments.
ReplyDeleteOf course, if you need a little more excitement in sobriety... you could always take up aviation, auto or motorcycle racing; lots of fun stuff.
Or, just eat a bowl of my chili.
Heh.
-M