Well, I should be working on my written first step.
The one I told my sponsor that I'd have done by, uh, yesterday.
And, I should be working on a car in the carport. One that was supposed to be done by, uh, yesterday.*
But, I decided I'd take a trip by Blogger. I've also worked on getting some side work, selling some cars, and fixing a guitar effect pedal.
I've found I can get really busy with legitimately productive stuff when it's time to do actual step work.
Anyway, this first step worksheet** he gave me is pretty brutal. There are a bunch of questions about my physical condition (along the lines of how well I've taken care of myself), as well as my emotional, spiritual, social/family, occupational and financial life.
The bottom of the page says (yes, in caps):
There's a couple more pages of writing, and then the worksheet ends with the following directive:
Time to get to work, in more than one sense.
-M
*Note: the reason it wasn't done was that a part was defective, and it was getting a little late in the day. But, I have got a replacement, and need to get out there now...
** looking at the bottom of the page, it says: "With Love, from the Top of the Hill Group..." and their address. If I go to San Diego, I should look them up.
The one I told my sponsor that I'd have done by, uh, yesterday.
And, I should be working on a car in the carport. One that was supposed to be done by, uh, yesterday.*
But, I decided I'd take a trip by Blogger. I've also worked on getting some side work, selling some cars, and fixing a guitar effect pedal.
I've found I can get really busy with legitimately productive stuff when it's time to do actual step work.
Anyway, this first step worksheet** he gave me is pretty brutal. There are a bunch of questions about my physical condition (along the lines of how well I've taken care of myself), as well as my emotional, spiritual, social/family, occupational and financial life.
The bottom of the page says (yes, in caps):
IN SUMMARY
ARE YOU CONVINCED THAT YOU ARE POWERLESS OVER ALCOHOL AND THAT YOUR LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE EVEN WHEN SOBER?Well, I guess these folks don't pull punches.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT TH E FACT THAT I AM POWERLESS?
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT THE FACT THAT MY LIFE IS UNMANAGEABLE BY ME?
There's a couple more pages of writing, and then the worksheet ends with the following directive:
Somehow, I'm gonna' guess that this group is pretty big on having sponsors. And, I'm gonna' also guess that they're probably pretty big on staying sober, and having the promises - not just the ones read at meetings, but the ones glossed over on almost any of the first 164 pages of the book - operative in their lives.SUMMARY STATEMENT AND TAKING THE STEPIF YOU ARE READY TO ADMIT YOUR POWERLESSNESS YOU CAN DO IT BY WRITING OUT THE FOLLOWING STATEMENT AND/OR TELLING IT TO YOUR SPONSOR OR THE GROUP (IF NO SPONSOR).
"I, ADMIT THAT i AM POWERLESS AND THAT MY LIFE HAS BECOME UNMANAGEABLE."
YOU HAVE NOW TAKEN STEP ONE!!!
Time to get to work, in more than one sense.
-M
*Note: the reason it wasn't done was that a part was defective, and it was getting a little late in the day. But, I have got a replacement, and need to get out there now...
** looking at the bottom of the page, it says: "With Love, from the Top of the Hill Group..." and their address. If I go to San Diego, I should look them up.
